Written by: Wonga Tsalupondo
As my eyes skimmed your message: ‘thank you for waiting on me & understanding that I needed a break when I asked for it’
My heart gleamed
– like the light that one hopes for at the end of a dark tunnel –
that you were back to yourself, again
Or at least I assumed
But at least there was now hope that what we had was about to get back on track
Or at least I hoped
My eyes waded the text towards this supposed light
Only to be somersaulted out of the eye of a cyclone
When you said:
‘I’m falling out of love with you each day’
Hope, a four-letter word, just like love, thawed out in the belly of the beast!
I was not sure whether I was mad at the fact I was now loveless
Or at the realization that I loved, and was sometimes loved, but it became fruitless
That I, too, was fruitless
With that realization all my senses heightened,
And all of a sudden, an unconscious solipsist like me
Could, for once, relate not only to my surroundings but to other people’s feelings
With that, too, came understanding
Understanding that I was not enough for you
Understanding that I’m not what you want/ed
Understanding that, now, I have to keep my world moving without you…
…but what does it all matter that my love could not keep you?
…why does it all matter that I can’t have you to keep? …does it all matter now that you are gone?
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